So since the last time I posted, I had just recently moved from Shanghai to Hong Kong. Well, it has been over 2+ years since then! What have I been doing? Well besides living on a plane most of my life, I have been seeing the world. The job has its perks... being able to go everywhere in Asia, work with some amazing people in those countries, eat all the food I can try (and getting way too fat), and then owning my own home now in Hong Kong. What else...seeing friends and visiting them in different parts of the world is just amazing. I love it... I always feel like I have a friend in every country I go to. That's something that not many people can say...
BUT I do feel sometimes that I am getting more and more disconnected with the US. I miss my friends back home and whenever I have the chance, I do try to go back. However, most of my friends are now all scattered throughout the US. It is so hard to keep up. Trust me, I think about them a lot. I also feel that I need to settle down now. Don't know how or when... I wrote a draft a while ago when I was dating this loser in HK which I never posted:
I've been in Hong Kong for six months now, but to be honest, I have literally be IN Hong Kong for about a total of 3 months if you combine the time that I am here. I am usually on the road traveling for work but I do try to make it "home" to Hong Kong on the weekends. Today is one of those weekends where I am here and boy am I glad! The weather is amazing...I got up today just to go and take a hike and I am so super happy that I did. The sky is BLUE... so blue that you can see far far away from the peak. It is days like this that I LOVE where I am, despite some current setbacks.
I guess I shouldn't be ashamed to share this with you all but yet, I have finished yet another unsuccessful relationship. Long story short, he wasn't man enough for me. Funny how I can actually say this but of course part of me still thinks WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!?!? BUT, I can honestly say this time around, I can say that it really isn't me... it is him. He lost his happiness (divorced) and instead of coming to me and seeing the bigger picture, he pushed me out. He took me to this gorgeous cliff overlooking the most amazing scenery and then thrust his foot out and kicked me over. I do believe that he loved me and instead of leaning into me and letting me take care of him (not in the co-dependent way), he just walked. He didn't appreciate what was in front of him and how I was bringing him so much happiness. I realized that again, I am not going to change someone so I had to accept and move on. The sad part was that we were a perfect fit...he is a coward and scared (and sometimes, I do believe rightly so) but sometimes, I just have to say MAN UP. Choose to embrace good in life and I was good. Cowards deserve what they get.
On that note, I have to believe in faith...faith that there are good out there. There WILL be a good one that will step into my life and FIGHT for my faith. I have to believe there are good good people out there. These days, I keep hearing about marriages breaking up, people cheating, people getting hurt, and going through tough tough times. This is not how the world is supposed to be! Love is supposed to make people happy! I've always seen myself as a happy positive person but sometimes, this really tests me!
This just makes me think that it may be time for me to go home.... Anyhow, I have to run. The plane is about to take off. More later. Miss everyone...especially Phil Lee :)
